what if we can forget the past by just wishing so? i know many would have wish they could forget their past. many would have wish the can unlearn things. i am one of them. however, this blog is not made to help us forget but to make a way for the memories to be more than just memories. -this is ze.rome.mory

Hey! I’ve just viewed my old blog and look what I’ve found. I have posted this stuff during Feb 14. I can’t find time to write a valentines day message for now. Just read this one. I have written it last year anyway.

Whoa… I could still remember the last valentine message I’ve written and it was so dramatic.

Hm., Actually, I’ve found the original copy of the letter last night and I’ve read it not just once but thrice. Oh come on! It sounds stupid but the same strange thought comes and clutters my mind whenever Feb 14 comes. It is the thought of changing my mind and getting out of any relationship I have with others. Hm. It is not healthy for me to do this yearly. I mean to get out and run away from relationships.

I don’t actually know what’s happening to me. Last month,(I mean January) I’ve gone a little change-change in character, change in motivations and even change in spiritual beliefs. And now, I don’t know what exactly is happening to me. I know I am getting bored. I need adventures. But what kind of adventures? Are homeworks and school problems part of these adventures? Oh my! Do I have to get out of another relationship? Uhm, wait. I am not in any relationship yet. I’m just courting on somebody. Should I quit courting? I don’t really know what to do. A lot of exaggerated thoughts just comes in my mind without my warm permission.

Will she fell hurt if I did? I don’t know. I actually don’t know if she feels anything special for me. I just know she is the one I want. Is the term right? I don’t know if I just “want” her or if I do “love” her. Hm.

I don’t really want to think of this but it’s making me go nuts. Hm., actually, I told people to quit playing games with me and found out during the last minute that I was the one playing and the one who controlled the game. That’s a bit corny! But that’s how it is.

I’m still on the decision-making process. It is either I’ll quit courting and be friends or just go on and wait until I get bored again.

Anyway, there are lots of problem I have to think about other than this. I still have problems with our research papers and also with the school requirements.

I think I’m going to die…

But I shouldn’t.

The Lord be with us all…

May He guide us always…

Thanks for reading.

– Oh well, things seem to be different now. I don’t think this way. I would still try to write a late valentines day message.haha